happy

i finally get to walk the talk of creating a better world for malaysian dogs.
someone will have my back no matter how rough my day can be.
knowing that its okay to stay foolish than to be ego.
knowing that i am a bigger person at all times.

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thank you very much

thank you very much for all the things even though you don't have to do that.

new friends #1

met a couple of cute new friends frolicking under the sun that day. it certainly brought back good old memories of the time when i used to have loads and loads of furry friends, back in the primary school days.


comparing feet, mine's cooler my little furry friend.



looking at me looking at her. 

i remember vividly how much i hated homework, and all i wanted to do was to play with all the furry friends behind my house after school. i made a point to meet my furry friends everyday or to smuggle my mom's food whenever i can. rain or shine, nothing, literally nothing can stop me from not doing these every single day.

i didn't even care to make friends with my peers because they think i wasn't cool enough to play "masak-masak" with them. it didnt bothered me too much, as all i need was my furry friends to be around.

not sure when did i gradually stop hanging out with them. wonder if they are still around, and i wonder.

=)

am glad zen finally found me, or i found zen. either ways, i am much happier now =)

2010 was just episodes of dramas. i hope i'll have more fucks this year will be a better one.

just so every of my beloved friends know, february is nearing, that means *cough* my birthday *cough* is coming! please do not forget, unless you've already prepared to feel my wrath, but i don't think you'd like to mess with my zen. ommmm...

yeap, trying to be zen after been working crazily crazy for 3 months straight.

happy holidays and party hard everyone.

be truly happy.

i wish you love

i felt downright terrible. it was so awful to know i am partially responsible for those tears you shed.

i wished i'd find the right comforting words, or at least brushed it off casually - it's no biggies, really, you learn some, lose some and earn some then move on. but who am i to assure you that it could be easy, why say every day is a new start when, some spend days or years just to ease the pain or carefully avoiding it. we will at least be happy as long as memories and secrets are well kept in the closet. we can pretend to ignore it even if emotional distresses are bursting at the seams.

or we believe we'll forget things eventually.

while still trying my very best to sooth those tears, my thoughts were taken away by fractions of memories  - the stroll along the riverside where stars were bright, and the incident i was fascinated seeing puffs of frozen breathe in the cold air.

i love those memories and every bit of it. no one can possibly take those away from me, and i guessed that's how you cherish your memories too. no words will be appropriate to ease the ache of your heart.

it is not because i am lack of vocab, i just can't take away the memories and feelings you took years to build with just one or two simple words. it is not fair to you.

one day, perhaps one day, you'll find your way out. you'll not walk out from it, you'll learn to love them and take them with you whenever you go.

therefore, i wish you love.

just the way you always want to be

i still remember our conversation happened at that apartment we rented; i was lying on that filthy couch listening to your dream and how you have sketched your life plans two years after we graduated.

it was the simplest dream i ever heard of. It may be plain and unchallenged but she doesn't need to go through the rollercoaster of life to finally realise what she really wants. 

i secretly wished that i can have the dream like her's. holding my loved one till the endest bit of my life.we all thought we can. at least i nearly think i could.

if i ever can be as simple as her. keeping life uncomplicated as it should be.things could have been different. way different. but i am not her, because being simple is the best of her. that is why she deserves to have what she wants in life.

i wish you happy marriage that stands the test of time.

and you will.

suggestions on how to make yourself less lonely

hwei! says : i think am very lonely
YokeYee says: hmmm... find urself a hobby lar...
hwei! says: how can i de-lonelinize myself
YokeYee says: like collect stem ar... hehe watever that can make ur life to be more meaningful
YokeYee says: u got anything like to do ar?
hwei! says: what suggestions u hav ?
YokeYee says: COLLECT STEM.... COLLECT POKEMON CARD.... COLLECT GULI... COLLECT ERRRR WATEVER CAN COLLECT LAH!!!
hwei! says: i think i like to collect bfs
hwei! says: sometimes am just amaze of how your brain works
YokeYee says: hehe 我的爱好: 阅读, 收集邮票, 画画, 唱歌, 跳舞
YokeYee says: Y?? COS POKEMON CARD?
YokeYee says: bf cant collect many, cos u got only 1 hole
YokeYee says: ok
hwei! says: ahahahah...damn kau funny la u
YokeYee says: nanti lubang pecah die faster
hwei! says: am so fucking posting this thing man
YokeYee says: dun u har
YokeYee says:  i dun wan go massage with u
hwei! says: post already
YokeYee says: u post la post.. good food also cancel
hwei! says:  fucking make my day

i am thinking hard

that some day i want to go back to studies.

i am really missing the days where i can skip any classes whenever the weather is shitty, i am feeling sleepy or i am physically and mentally deranged.

i think the thing that i missed the most was the long night crappy chats, the porn sessions and the serious talks on our unweavering dreams.

i miss everything when i was in uni when i can't live like any now.

i miss my life, back then.

who is your bff?

i've been pondering after i read pariah 3's entry on bff. what's twirling in my mind is that what are the criteria to become my bff.

i think deep, and i thought hard. finally i have a perfect candidate who is so irreplaceable, that no one else in the world can understand me better than he/she does.

for he/she knows the right time to shut up when i am not in the mood.

for he/she pops out of no where and gives me whole lots of surprises. he/she knows i love surprises.

for he/she ignores me when i am talking crap.

for he/she understands there are times i need to be alone.

for he/she accepts my mistakes and flaws because he/she knows no human being in this world is perfect.

for he/she would not condemn me even if i pair my flip flops with proper attire.

for he/she showers me with admiration and love because i am an attention whore, sometimes.

not any one in the world can read me better then he/she does.

my bff is a shy and low profile person. he/she refused to post for me. i've only managed to capture part of his/her look before he/she run off.




everybody, meet bluey anonymous.




i am so sorry. i have no idea you are a male or female, but we are still best friends right?


don't judge. human beings are too superficial and judgmental that is why there's no best friend forever between us, the same species.

road to recovery

some days back in couple of years, i'd been stabbed by my own folly.

it was quite funny how i shrugged off clues which could save me from being wrecked.

i snorted at common idea on how i would end up, believing hard that i will be the exception.

next, what happened left me stood in awe for quite awhile.

i guess what really made me appalled was i couldn't gave up on what i'd never doubt of.

to be honest, i couldnt believe i'd been overturn by my beliefs.

but really, there is no absolute promise that one will get what he/she wants even he/she pray so hard for things to pull through.

some day today, i wonder why it took such a long journey for me to understand.

i never regretted on what i have done,

i just wish it wouldnt take me so long to finally realise this.

xxx

I couldn't say enough wonderful things about beautiful souls who never give up on me.

yer,

thanks for doing the most thoughtful things whenever i need you.

some conundrums are yet to be solved, but i will come safely through with you being around.

despite all, you are still my greatest peeves.

lueypin,

i remember how we consoled each other at Taman Paramount LRT station.

sorry for being such an asshole for always remembering you when i am low in fuel.

ainee,

thanks for checking out on me constantly.

i enjoy scolding you, one way to make me realise i am as anal as you.

aiwei,

getting scoldings from you were rare occasions,

and i enjoyed all of them.

vien,

thanks for sticking up for my shits.

its hard to forget the moments we laughed our ass off talking about my shits.

others i didn't mention, i didn't forget.

Thank you for going high and low just to make me happy.

xxx

i have a bunch of bad good friends - part 2

having being constantly accused i am a bad influence to people around me, its my never-ending quest to prove myself guilty by showing - i have been polluted by a bunch of bad friends.

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hwei says:
eh yer, see, this might be my true calling.

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YokeYee says:
chieh
u can meh
need to shout
mari mari mari
durian besar n murah

hwei says:
U THINK MY VOICE VERY SOFT AR

YokeYee says:
mari oi oi amoi

hwei says:
Y CANT I?

YokeYee says:
aaa beli beli durian moi
u can meh?
u ar...
can ar...

hwei says:
y cant i?

YokeYee says:
u imagine urself la jibai

hwei says:
i can.. last time i used to sell stickers and flags when i was a st.johner.
i walked from house to house to ask ppl to buy eh, somemo i stand in front of shopping malls to sell stickers
Y CANT I?

YokeYee says:
mali mali sir beli durian ** but in voice of a chicken
ahahahahaha

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enough said? I am just being polluted and way too innocent to become an influence for the bad.

Random, very random

While i was doing my hard disc spring cleaning, i found this. THE article i sent in to my current employers nine months back - a mandatory writing assignment freshies need to submit if they ever wanted to squeeze their asses into the PR field.

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My Bookstore

Make a wish, place it in your heart.
Anything, everything you want.
You have it?
Now believe it can come true.
You will never know where the next miracle is going to come from.
But if you believed its right around corner,
You open your heart and mind to the possibilities and certainties of it,
You’ll get the thing you longed for.
The world is full of magic and you just have to believe it.
So, make your wish.
Do you have it?

Reasons why do I pursue public relations as career could be common. What I intent to write is about my passion -A burning thought that hovers in my mind when I first set foot in this fancy city that never sleeps.

Great people of old and modern times they have one thing in common. They believe that they can achieve anything, everything that they put their minds onto it. I am not any of these great people with master mind. Indeed, I am young and simple. Perhaps, a little slack for the age of 23, but I have a notable dream when I reached the age of 45. It is all about books, music, coffee and cakes.

Yes, you got me right. I want to open an independent bookstore that serves music, coffee and cakes when I am 45 year old. A small, sophisticated and warm bookstore situated around your neighbourhood where any restless soul in this city could find and measure their peace in this cozy plateau. Imagine junketing authors hold signing; your friends would be your best customers; bottomless hot coffee will be served and you stroll the aisles with blue sweater. There are times when I am so wide awake about the design of my bookstore; white clean walls, red reading lamps, wooden floor, red pillows and sofas and also, white bookshelves. There are also times when I am so overwhelming about the idea of the sweet, aromatic and classical coffee smell lingering in the air of my bookstore. The feeling is so palpable as if I am running my own bookstore now.

People told me I am way too optimistic about my bookstore ideology. They said mega bookstores will soon overshadowed your tiny bookstore. They said in 22 years time, people would not be bothered to spend a single minute outside because everything is virtual and so readily available. Online book sellers offer quick, cheap service. Big-box outlets and national chains cut best seller prices to the bone. There goes your dreams and passion, a more realistic answer might be a long look in the mirror and a few moments spend thinking about what’s at stake.

Deep down I defended. What’s lost in the rush, in this fancy city are personality, tranquillity and quirkiness, the very qualities that people want most when they pick up a book. My bookstore is not just a bookstore. It is a place where all walks of people who enjoys books come together; listen to the same genre of music, craving for cakes and coffee.

I believe, there is a universal law, ask and you shall received it. Most people can’t achieve their dreams because they are too afraid to imagine, let alone ask. I do not know what will I become 22 years later, but the most important thing is I will never give up on hope and faith. Many things can be done in our life if we had unwavering beliefs and desire to do it; I myself certainly believe it and say, let’s do it.



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This article was produced randomly after watching Satu Bukit Pokok and some ideas were borrowed from luey pin's blog, BUT the dream is TRUE.So true that every person who knows me well knew about it and one even proposed to open a restaurant beside my bookstore.

If one day, my dream won't come true, at the very least, I have that person who shares the same ideology with me. That person, who we talked about my bookstore and your restaurant through night long, with our blankets on and lights off.

But, I've always believe if we believe hard enough, we will find our way through it one day. Let's hope for that day, with our burning thoughts, shall we, Yer?

i have a bunch of bad good friends part 1

cindy was right, i am polluted because i have bad friends.

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Hwei says:
eh, i love u le

Ainee says:
.........

Ainee says:
im not ready to be lesbian yet

Hwei says:
DAMN U LA.. i lou ku po also wont become lesbian

Ainee says:
hor... u swear dy

Ainee says:
where's en nick

Hwei says:
shhh.. dont tell enick la!

Ainee says:
i want tell him not to blanja u

Hwei says:
i need tat food. cuz pokai d.

Hwei says:
u very good la.. good tat we met at form 6 le

Ainee says:
good what la good

Ainee says:
u wan wat me blanja u makan is it

Hwei says:
U THINK I AM TAT KINDA PPL MER

Ainee says:
en nick ma ur victim

Ainee says:
whats his ID? i want tell him, bocor ur rahsia

Hwei says:
AM I TAT KINDA PPL U ANSWER ME!

Ainee says:
i duno

Ainee says:
*whistle* la la la

Hwei says:
lao!!

Hwei says:
i batalkan da plan to treat u keropok 2 batang

Ainee says:
nvm, i go his frenster to msg him about that

Ainee says:
about what kind of person lee ying hwei is!!!!

Ainee says:
u sked onot now?

Hwei says:
lao...你不要断我米路

Ainee says:
i like

Ainee says:
u sked onot?

Hwei says:
how come my frens always wanna 靠害

Ainee says:
karma lor

Ainee says:
coz u alwiz do that to others

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cindy, you have not met my friends.

i am way innocent than you thought i am.