you make me happy

counting down again to the day we meet.

thinking of that day already bring me so much joy and happiness.

i really can't wait.

feel like smooching your face leaving tons and tons of saliva right this second.

damn salah in the heart and brain

damn salah.

its so salah right from the start.

sometimes what you said can be a jingle

i know i cannot be bothered anymore.

sometimes i am so sure that what you said didn't mean jack to me. i wouldn't give a flying kite to them. in fact, they couldn't mean any flying fucks to me.

no matter how much i was convinced that those words meant no harm to me anymore, the words that you said sprouted and grew, deeper and deeper. rubbing salts to my wounds and sores.

maybe you are right. i am trying hard. too hard indeed.

so hard that i can't go with the flow. too hard that things become awkward. i am straining myself too much that i couldn't let things go. like a kid with palm full of sweets that she couldn't pull her hand out of the jar. too greedy to let go some of the sweets.

i am too greedy that i want all. that is why i tried so hard and i ended up none.

i can't ditch it, really. i thought i had. it's already a jingle, twirling in my mind. jinxing i can never loved, nor be loved.

we can dwell on and on

i think we can do more amazing than this.

i love you.

:D

new job, me and hard rocky!

new job has been hectic, but the people i work with are pretty fun and crazy. i think that is the difference when you are working with veterans and a bunch of young people.

well, that is not the best part of the new job. the coolest is it is ooze with testosterone. not that i am desperate, it just feels so pamper to be the rare species among all man. guess you won't hear me complaining about sewing some bitches' effing mouths for the longest time.

also, i travelled in out back forth for events. the coolest was to work in Hard Rock Penang.

not only the hotel is pleasantly situated beside the beach. they have the longest swimming pool in Malaysia. beautiful murals are everywhere. the food was good. their milkshake was even more super duper. and the hotel staff are pretty helpful and friendly too.

me really likey! i feel like i want stay there for the rest of my life.

Hard Rock Penang, please hire me. i can be your pr/marcomm officer/bartender/fill in the blanks as long as i can stay there forever.

caption is lame



long long light bulbs. gotta see them at night!



don't know who they are, but i think they must be famous to be displayed in hard rocky



swimming pool is just a step from your room! damn cool right!



try to camwhore while working



nikki sixx's guitar. i have no idea who he is. wtf



chandeliers. i can so imagine my future home will be full of these



mural! beatles!



everyone is busy asking people to snap themselves in hard rocky



ladies' signage



snapping random stuff at some random angle to show that i am artistic

i miss you, this and that.

i miss you, subaru.

sometimes, it is too hard to convince myself on how i am suppose to live with or things supposed to be.

like how i am suppose to fall asleep by myself. or, how i should enjoy the quietness around me while allowing my thoughts run berserk before falling into deep slumber. or, how i can turn and toss around when i wake up given that i own the whole bed.

this is how i should be. i mean, being not so single but never available, i thought i would be contented this way.

you are no good. really not good for me.

you ruined my zen in a month time.

now i feel surreal when i am lying alone in my bed. almost like i've left part of me somewhere else, and i couldn't get them back anymore.

oh. maybe someday i could sort out a way to ease this disorientation or at least try to be peace with myself.

but not really now though.

lands and seas

apart by lands and seas.

sending loves and lusts across 6612km.

till the next time we meet, you are definitely worth waiting for.

absolutely.

oh, cold rock and chocolate banana scone.

when u grow up

you need to pay your bills.

bills. bills. bills.

BILLS and MORE BILLS.

effing bills.

i sulk

i sulk. i sulk. i sulk. i sulk. i sulk.

i sulk.

are you feeling horny?

take this!

warning:

untasteful scene may occur. please prepare a dustbin and place it beside you if you just had your food.
please turn off the volume if you are in the office.
if this clip brings you any unpleasant or terrifying memories, please do not stop yourself from consuming food with lard.

the constant constipated look on my face shows that i don't want to go back that fast

ditto.

to the zoo!!

the trip to taronga zoo was great fun.

the animals are not that active but cute, and also curious. i think they must have enjoyed watching us, human being, as we go hoo haa at every single adorable stunts they performed. now i know i am not the only jakun in the earth, there are others lurking everywhere.

anyway, i didn't get the chance to hug nor pat a koala. i can only watch them their grey asses from afar.


amalgram of excitments - a forever snoozing koala, giraffe, a pile of leaves a frill-necked lizard and more of course.



looking at me looking at it.



very innocent attention graber. look at the eyes.. aw..



yer, your doi doi! i can be sure that this kangaroo must be an asian judging by the slit eyes.



ass photo!



more sexy ass!



and my ass face.

i guess all the people misses me will say...

damn, you are really good at procrastinating. where are the photos you promised?

yes. i am and i don't earn the title of mother of all procrastinators for nothing. if i were given a dollar for each task i defered, i would probably be a millionnaire by now.

anyhow, here are some of the photos of my journey. shall upload the rest not too soon yet won't be keeping you too long. :D

this is the neighbourhood i am staying. yeap, nice street art right. i know.



it's spring already! purple flowers i don't know what name is in blossom.



not where i am staying. but look at the puny mandarin oranges, this feels like chinese new year!



women's community health centre in my neighbourhood. how good, young women in this area are so physically and emotionally protected and well taken care of. the mural depicted what young women love, what makes them happy and sad and people they would like to thank of.



this tree reminds me of chinese new year (again???!!!??). i must be in the mood of festive celebration already.



dandelion! oh! i am such a jakun.



my new found friend posed for a photograph. everyone, meet cat anonymous!




Queen Victoria Building (QVB). here are some fine details of this shopping mall.



the interior of QVB. real fine architecture design. it's amazing how a shopping mall can look like, compare to the shopping malls in KL.



falling in love with the stained-glasess at each shop.




sydney fish market, actually, just part of it. the market is way larger incorporating numerous fresh seafood retail stores, sushi bars, beverage outlets, indoor seating and an outdoor promenade. you can get the freshest salmon here, me likey!



this is the outdoor promenade i meant. you can eat and share your space with aggresive seagulls aiming at your seafood every single second.also, watching them fighting over crumbs of seafood (feeding prohibited) drop on the floor could be an interesting affair.




circular quay! i have to take photos of coconut tree-like plant because i am from malaysia. wtf? ok i am just a jakun.



sydney opera house and the promenade. look at the sky, clouds le.



siting at the staircases of sydney opera house enjoying looking at hyperactive tourists from china the dusk.



sydney cityscape and me, in case you miss my face already.

mind effer haunts me far from malaysia!

so i thought when i quit my job, i will stop pinky from effing my sight and my mind left, right, up and down.

boy, i was so wrong. pinky now haunts me every single moment when she's able to get hold of me. she texts me. she pops me messages in msn whenever i am online, oh, she drops me messages even i am offline.

i am now honouring you the ultimate mind effer, judging by the way you haunt me, penetrating every opportunities you have to eff my mind.

but, really, you forgot something - i am not obligated to answer your questions and listen to your rantings because i am no longer working with you anymore. so just shut up, stop acting like a drama queen and do what you suppose to do, duh.

hiatus

in case you are wondering, i am still very much alive, thank you everyone.

i wouldn't go M.I.A for very a long time, till, i stop acting like a jakun in this city. so, if anyone bump into one funny looking girl, staring at you in a weird way and snapping images of insignificance (for example, flowers, leaves, trees, cats, birds, lamp posts, rubbish and dustbins), yep, that's me. please forgive me, i am having a tad culture syok shock.

ok. till my next entry. i miss everyone of you in Malaysia.