you are cumming? am not!

when will people realise that it is so wrong to use the word cum to replace come.

sigh, not funny. just stop using it.

not everyone has the privilege to cum that often.

i like how things are sugar coated

come to think about it, it doesn't reward you for wins and loses, or how well you play the game.

now that i've gotten a much clearer picture of this, i don't think i will ever regret of the things i'll do next.

just need to find a way to get on with my next plan.

sigh, so many things to do, so little time to achieve.

=)

am glad zen finally found me, or i found zen. either ways, i am much happier now =)

2010 was just episodes of dramas. i hope i'll have more fucks this year will be a better one.

just so every of my beloved friends know, february is nearing, that means *cough* my birthday *cough* is coming! please do not forget, unless you've already prepared to feel my wrath, but i don't think you'd like to mess with my zen. ommmm...

yeap, trying to be zen after been working crazily crazy for 3 months straight.

happy holidays and party hard everyone.

be truly happy.

just pathetic

i wonder if he knows that he hogged the cover page of almost every chinese papers.

how stupid and pathetic can it be, seriously. this guy killed himself for a 4-month old relationship.

and the most ironic part is that some brave girl struggled her life to fight blood cancer, yet the news wasn't even at the first couple of pages.

the layout of news just made people think that " hey there's no biggies killing themselves, this is just another casanova committing suicide."

news are just fucking pathetic and am working in this line.

无言

战争又再爆发， 这次的我没有避风港，看着枪弹都已经杀到前方了，还是默默地站在原地让阵阵的炮弹来伤害你。

原来是真的，不论你逃得多远，只要你还是在意，就算多么不愿意，还是逃不掉的。我还曾经一度以为真的以为已经远远的逃离了。

不论你如何绞尽了办法，事情还是不可以两全其美。吞下了苦水，最后还是埋没了自己定下的规矩。

我很不甘心。其实我真的真的很不甘心。

有骨气又如何， 有尊严又如何？

又能怎样？

if this has to be done

i don't feel good barking at people and i don't like to corner them, if you ask me.

its not like i don't see you are struggling to get things done.

i acknowledged your effort, it is just not good enough.

i won't say sorry because the i am still right.

sigh.

WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY?

WHY AM I WORKING ON A PUBLIC HOLIDAY?
WHY AM I REPLYING EMAILS AND ANSWERING CLIENTS' CALLS ON A PUBLIC HOLIDAY?

WHY MY SALARY REMAINS THE SAME EVEN AFTER PETROL PRICE WAS UP FOR UPTENTH TIMES IN COUPLE OF MONTHS?

PWROAR!! 

WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY?

happy song!

so that some of you wouldn't blame me for making you sad. =(

no lah, i just want everyone to be happy.

this is a happy song!

something i forgot for the longest time

the rule of thumb of a good relationship is:-

fight like a married couple
talk like best friends
flirt like first love
protect each other like brothers and sisters

at one point i almost forgot that argument is one of the essentials. thought it will be detrimental to a relationship, so i avoided it, carefully and deliberately.

no, it is not. so not.

it freaks me out, really

i listened to her very carefully, at the same time, reading her facial expression.

she was complaining that guys are selfish bunch. they never really care about how their words and actions could hurt others. she went on and on and on and on and on, and on and on an on and on and on and on and on and on.. UNTIL she said:"

i miss my ex so much that you know what i will do? i login into his emails and social network accounts to stalk him. sometimes i used his email to write emails to myself and he doesn't know about it.

while she was saying this, her facial muscle twitched. it was as if stalking her ex is her greatest hobby, and she freaking enjoys it.

it just freaks me out really. for once, i can at least say that i am pretty normal as compared to some of the crazy individuals. am just lucky she is not my ex.

brrrr.. no more no more

i collected my not-so-proud badges in one night.

it felt god damn good but i seriously doubt that i'd do it again.

obliviate

selfish people live happier don't they?

obliviate.

it takes so long for me to understand

yeap, for once i've actually acknowledged that i am emo.

it takes so long for me to understand that as much as i never give up on people, they gave me up easily. it feels fucking awful to know people i love or care about do not share the same beliefs like i do. 

yes, i can be god damn stubborn and optimistic at times, but i always know that if we hope enough and never give up, we'll find a way out. the journey can be rough and tough, but as long as there's a tiny glimmer of hope, why let go of someone you always love, believe and trust.

or may be am wrong or i've always trusted the wrong person. that is why they always gave me up easily.

times like this i hate myself because i never wanted to admit i made the wrong choice in believing someone.

i am hopeless

pwroarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr... i am so so so so so angry at myself chickening out at the very last minute. how can i possibly do that, it is like i have lost quarter of my guts when the quarter life crisis hits me.

i feel like banging my head to the wall after realising what i'd actually missed, but that wasn't enough. i really want to scar my face so that it can serve as a reminder of how retarded am i when i look in the mirror.

pwroarrrrrrrr!