me

she is talking about me.

it must be me.

i just can't admit it.

not today

not long ago, i left fragments of me behind - the bus tickets, the receipts, the sweet wrappers, the brochures, the leather skin diary, thinking that i should never leave a trace of evidence of me liking that city. nothing should lay around to remind me of what i loved.

today, my mind wandered off on its own, pounding on some thoughts about the city - puffs of frozen breathe, the food, the smell of the coffee lingered in the air of the old streets, the grocery stores, the asian market, the parks, the birds and that big fluffy tail cat. 

i want to go back again, really.

not today and  might not be tomorrow.

but one day, i will. 

one day. i will.

burst

I AM ABOUT TO BURST AH, NIA SENG.
GIVE ME A BREAK.

confused

sometimes i don't know if additional offerings in life are good for me or a stall.

i guessed everything just happened too fast.

am so confused and low on energy right now.

hello, going 26 in 7 days time!

7 days until my birthday and i am officially 26 this year!

at this point of life, i absolutely understand that growing old is a mandatory, in another words, i can't stop myself from ageing. nevertheless, i shall age gracefully. anyone who is mocking at me, you will walk my path one day. it is just a matter of time.

i hope i can be wiser this year and continue my path to zen-ism. 

:D

you are cumming? am not!

when will people realise that it is so wrong to use the word cum to replace come.

sigh, not funny. just stop using it.

not everyone has the privilege to cum that often.

i like how things are sugar coated

come to think about it, it doesn't reward you for wins and loses, or how well you play the game.

now that i've gotten a much clearer picture of this, i don't think i will ever regret of the things i'll do next.

just need to find a way to get on with my next plan.

sigh, so many things to do, so little time to achieve.

=)

am glad zen finally found me, or i found zen. either ways, i am much happier now =)

2010 was just episodes of dramas. i hope i'll have more fucks this year will be a better one.

just so every of my beloved friends know, february is nearing, that means *cough* my birthday *cough* is coming! please do not forget, unless you've already prepared to feel my wrath, but i don't think you'd like to mess with my zen. ommmm...

yeap, trying to be zen after been working crazily crazy for 3 months straight.

happy holidays and party hard everyone.

be truly happy.

just pathetic

i wonder if he knows that he hogged the cover page of almost every chinese papers.

how stupid and pathetic can it be, seriously. this guy killed himself for a 4-month old relationship.

and the most ironic part is that some brave girl struggled her life to fight blood cancer, yet the news wasn't even at the first couple of pages.

the layout of news just made people think that " hey there's no biggies killing themselves, this is just another casanova committing suicide."

news are just fucking pathetic and am working in this line.

无言

战争又再爆发， 这次的我没有避风港，看着枪弹都已经杀到前方了，还是默默地站在原地让阵阵的炮弹来伤害你。

原来是真的，不论你逃得多远，只要你还是在意，就算多么不愿意，还是逃不掉的。我还曾经一度以为真的以为已经远远的逃离了。

不论你如何绞尽了办法，事情还是不可以两全其美。吞下了苦水，最后还是埋没了自己定下的规矩。

我很不甘心。其实我真的真的很不甘心。

有骨气又如何， 有尊严又如何？

又能怎样？

if this has to be done

i don't feel good barking at people and i don't like to corner them, if you ask me.

its not like i don't see you are struggling to get things done.

i acknowledged your effort, it is just not good enough.

i won't say sorry because the i am still right.

sigh.

WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY?

WHY AM I WORKING ON A PUBLIC HOLIDAY?
WHY AM I REPLYING EMAILS AND ANSWERING CLIENTS' CALLS ON A PUBLIC HOLIDAY?

WHY MY SALARY REMAINS THE SAME EVEN AFTER PETROL PRICE WAS UP FOR UPTENTH TIMES IN COUPLE OF MONTHS?

PWROAR!! 

WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY?

happy song!

so that some of you wouldn't blame me for making you sad. =(

no lah, i just want everyone to be happy.

this is a happy song!

something i forgot for the longest time

the rule of thumb of a good relationship is:-

fight like a married couple
talk like best friends
flirt like first love
protect each other like brothers and sisters

at one point i almost forgot that argument is one of the essentials. thought it will be detrimental to a relationship, so i avoided it, carefully and deliberately.

no, it is not. so not.