road to recovery

some days back in couple of years, i'd been stabbed by my own folly.

it was quite funny how i shrugged off clues which could save me from being wrecked.

i snorted at common idea on how i would end up, believing hard that i will be the exception.

next, what happened left me stood in awe for quite awhile.

i guess what really made me appalled was i couldn't gave up on what i'd never doubt of.

to be honest, i couldnt believe i'd been overturn by my beliefs.

but really, there is no absolute promise that one will get what he/she wants even he/she pray so hard for things to pull through.

some day today, i wonder why it took such a long journey for me to understand.

i never regretted on what i have done,

i just wish it wouldnt take me so long to finally realise this.

xxx

I couldn't say enough wonderful things about beautiful souls who never give up on me.

yer,

thanks for doing the most thoughtful things whenever i need you.

some conundrums are yet to be solved, but i will come safely through with you being around.

despite all, you are still my greatest peeves.

lueypin,

i remember how we consoled each other at Taman Paramount LRT station.

sorry for being such an asshole for always remembering you when i am low in fuel.

ainee,

thanks for checking out on me constantly.

i enjoy scolding you, one way to make me realise i am as anal as you.

aiwei,

getting scoldings from you were rare occasions,

and i enjoyed all of them.

vien,

thanks for sticking up for my shits.

its hard to forget the moments we laughed our ass off talking about my shits.

others i didn't mention, i didn't forget.

Thank you for going high and low just to make me happy.

xxx

aha, so you thought I wouldn't reply to tags huh!

Chew Lueypin, just so you thought I would not reply to tags, I will, occasionally. Actually never been.

Upshot is, I was fiddling through your old entries (Interpret: I am re-reading your old entries because there is not much new stuff on. Please update your long-abandoned blog so I'll know you are perfectly fine/in one piece/happily struggling/fill in the blanks) and found out I was tagged and labelled as one of the people who hasnt been updating regularly (Huh? You mean me?).



XXX

RULE #1 Given that I am not an obedient people, there is no rule. Please do not fuss yourself to read on the rules.

RULE #2 Crap.


1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?

I will pretend I know nothing, be good with him, chop off his penis/balls when his off guard, then tie the penis/balls at a balloon to let it fly away.

I am just kidding. Exactly, there is nothing much I can do, leaving is the best option. Don't expect me to befriend with him. Things don't work out that way.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?

I am greedy. I can't be contented with just one dream come true. But I do have a lifetime ambition though - to become the most sucessful tai tai (Interpret: bum, slack, high tea, excessive shopping.)


3. Whose butt would you like to kick?

No. Make love (literally), no war.


4. What would you do with a billion dollars?

Bum, slack, high tea, excessive shopping, hire a male stripper then go hooooo haaaaa with Yer, Lueypin and Vien. (Sorry for not inviting you, pariah 3, i know you wouldn't be a tad interested.)

5. Will you fall in love with your bestfriend?

Possible, did happen couple of times. :D


6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?

It doesn't matter. As long as I can become the most successful tai tai.


7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?

I used to say I will wait for someone, but got over it after a couple of months.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?

Why the questions are so emo? I would refrain myself falling in love with someone whose already attached. Exactly, what is the point of stealing people's boyfriend?

And I believe in retribution.


9. What do you pray each day for your loved one?

Which loved one? How can you possibly have one and the only loved one? What happen to my family, doggie and anonymous?


10. What takes you down the fastest?

Living a mundane life.

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?

A successful tai tai with billions, enjoying strip shows with Yer, Lueypin and Vien in a room specially alloted for such occasion.


12. What do you really want at the moment of responding to this tag?

I have too many desires.


13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?

This question is provocative. She is my best friend since secondary two!


14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?

Crap. Married, rich and happy.

15. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up?

Thinking very hard whether is it me in the mirror. Age catches up very fast, I barely recognise myself these days.


16. Would you give all in a relationship?

Depends.


17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?

Who has the most potential to make me a tai tai


18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?

Yes, I forgave and forgot. I have little recollections on the harms people inflicted on me.

19. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?

Relationship.

20. Referring to No. 19, what’s the best thing about it?

Waking up to hugs and kisses. bahahaha..


I tag:

Exhibitionists who like expressing themselves publicly.


XXX

7 days and counting down. :D

spring cleaning my hard disk

I is no good with words. I miss you alot. Like real alot.

congratulations

YOU DID IT ONCE AGIAN TO MAKE ME FEEL LIKE A MISERABLE FAILURE.
FUCK MY LIFE.
OK. THANK YOU. BYE.