i am annoyed at myself

Recently, I just lost it.

I've lost my patience, temper and the will to carry on.

I've not been able to tell myself to stay calm with the same old reasons I've been reciting for the last few months. Ice-cream could no longer keep me in sane, with thousands of doubts protruding my brain.

I can't even understand why am i registering myself for something uncertain at the first place. I am suprisingly picking on things that don't usually irritate me. I am reconsidering my definition of best-thing in life. Am i asking for too much in one shot after it has been staying the same for a while. I dare not say I would have chosen differently if i were to have another chance, but things just got harder and harder as days pass by.

I might have a decision that scares me out when I realised this just couldn't go on anymore. Don't help me to figure out. I don't want to know what can i do next. It can be scary.