i wish you love

i felt downright terrible. it was so awful to know i am partially responsible for those tears you shed.

i wished i'd find the right comforting words, or at least brushed it off casually - it's no biggies, really, you learn some, lose some and earn some then move on. but who am i to assure you that it could be easy, why say every day is a new start when, some spend days or years just to ease the pain or carefully avoiding it. we will at least be happy as long as memories and secrets are well kept in the closet. we can pretend to ignore it even if emotional distresses are bursting at the seams.

or we believe we'll forget things eventually.

while still trying my very best to sooth those tears, my thoughts were taken away by fractions of memories  - the stroll along the riverside where stars were bright, and the incident i was fascinated seeing puffs of frozen breathe in the cold air.

i love those memories and every bit of it. no one can possibly take those away from me, and i guessed that's how you cherish your memories too. no words will be appropriate to ease the ache of your heart.

it is not because i am lack of vocab, i just can't take away the memories and feelings you took years to build with just one or two simple words. it is not fair to you.

one day, perhaps one day, you'll find your way out. you'll not walk out from it, you'll learn to love them and take them with you whenever you go.

therefore, i wish you love.